i missed you.
i missed you so so much.
give me my big brother back
:'(
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
no other way
first post on my second blog :)
i've decided to put up this other blog so that i can still keep track of those that had happened in my life.
those,which are more colourful than my 'previous life'.
thus,the name A COLOURED PATH.
yes,so many happy things had turned out
the most memorable was my vacca to langkawi <3
ive got no pics to show..cause id rather keep this as anonymous as possible. :)
when i was there,i walked by the beach at around12am till around 2++am,
i even walked alone till i was at the private side of the beach..
as i sit there,staring out to the sea,
something occured to me,..
that i had nothing to think of.
there is absolutely nothing that i could think about
no problems to contemplate.no lover to think of.
no nothing.
n i thought,guess this is how being single is.
i've been in a relationship for so long that its almost weird
that there are no fights to ponder,problems need solving,
relationship needs saving.
so i just sat there,
nothing on my mind,
enjoying the gentle salty breeze
as it softly blew my hair sideways
as it touched my cold,cold skin.
its lonely,yes,
but it was also peaceful..
two days later,
i was on my way back
n all those that had happened there,
stayed there.
how i missed the laughter,
the crazy jokes,
the games,
the spontaneous flirts,
the harsh-yet-sweet protectiveness by a certain someone..
n suddenly
everything died,
n the same,common,boring routine came
slapping me in the face. reality's arrived.
oh joyy~ =.=
so here i am,
bound by these four walls
masked with hypocricy
painted with pretence.
i just wished i could be back there
being who i want to be
how i wanted to be ME.
plain,simple,real me.
but even so,
my life now,
is much better than before.
atleast there are no more suffering
no more torture
no more excruciating pain attached, tie-ing me down.
i can now smile n laugh whenever i want to.
its a bit lonely,sure.
but i wouldnt have it any other way
=)
i've decided to put up this other blog so that i can still keep track of those that had happened in my life.
those,which are more colourful than my 'previous life'.
thus,the name A COLOURED PATH.
yes,so many happy things had turned out
the most memorable was my vacca to langkawi <3
ive got no pics to show..cause id rather keep this as anonymous as possible. :)
when i was there,i walked by the beach at around12am till around 2++am,
i even walked alone till i was at the private side of the beach..
as i sit there,staring out to the sea,
something occured to me,..
that i had nothing to think of.
there is absolutely nothing that i could think about
no problems to contemplate.no lover to think of.
no nothing.
n i thought,guess this is how being single is.
i've been in a relationship for so long that its almost weird
that there are no fights to ponder,problems need solving,
relationship needs saving.
so i just sat there,
nothing on my mind,
enjoying the gentle salty breeze
as it softly blew my hair sideways
as it touched my cold,cold skin.
its lonely,yes,
but it was also peaceful..
two days later,
i was on my way back
n all those that had happened there,
stayed there.
how i missed the laughter,
the crazy jokes,
the games,
the spontaneous flirts,
the harsh-yet-sweet protectiveness by a certain someone..
n suddenly
everything died,
n the same,common,boring routine came
slapping me in the face. reality's arrived.
oh joyy~ =.=
so here i am,
bound by these four walls
masked with hypocricy
painted with pretence.
i just wished i could be back there
being who i want to be
how i wanted to be ME.
plain,simple,real me.
but even so,
my life now,
is much better than before.
atleast there are no more suffering
no more torture
no more excruciating pain attached, tie-ing me down.
i can now smile n laugh whenever i want to.
its a bit lonely,sure.
but i wouldnt have it any other way
=)
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