sudden change

it has been a blast at last..

i'm hoping this year would be a great turnover for me.

since i can finally move on and all,..

theres just so much i havent updated.

for about 3 months now,am finally cheery again :)

but then i dont know why do i keep restricting myself from being happy

maybe to not repeat what happened AND to remind myself of what did happened.

but yeah,that way,i always ended up hurting not just myself but others who wants a chance to enter my life,i guess.

but you see,..i have this tendency

tendency to be complicated and i dont know,easily hurt by the smallest things ever

when i started to care for someone.

and i cant help it!

try as i may to change this bad habit,

i'll still end up as i was even though there's a little improvement at first.

the next stage is,whoever at first so want to be apart of my life will get irritated and really annoyed by my sudden change of behavior.

then,they'll get tired of it and eventually,

will bail out n leave.

*sighs*

i dont know..

maybe i'm meant to be alone?

*sighs*

maybe its for the better..

that way,i wont hurt anyone

n everyone'll be happy right?

:)