whatever This is

It's different.
He's different.
He's not like the others his age.
You'd be surprised at his words and the way he thinks.
Totally not his age.
Thoughtful, more mature.
He's hidden.
You wont know his true colour unless you're alone with him.
You wouldn't see the spoilt boy.
You wouldn't even know there's another side to this guy.
It's confusing.
He's confusing.
He may made this bold sweet move.
But then he'll act like no, nothing happened.
He'll make you feel like he's really into you.
But then he suddenly spaced out and forgets you're beside him.
He can be really cute and sweet.
But immediately spoils the mood by sending rude remarks -_-'
He has the sweetest smile you cant stay mad at him.
He has this annoyingly adorable attitude that whenever he's doing wrong or didnt quickly pick up the point, it just doesn't matter
He's actually really shy but he's a really great company.
He can easily adapt to a new environment or people around him.
At least thats what I observed.
But the most important is that
We just recently known each other
But its like compared to everyone that had known me all my life,  he's the only soul that is able to understand what I go through. What I'm going through.
No, maybe not understand,  but atleast he tries.
He knows that I dont need any advice or motivational words.
He knows that he just needs to stay there, and just listens.
He knows that all I need is someone to turn to with no judgements in what i did even if its wrong.
He made me feel like a little girl.
He made me feel like I can be one despite all the shit I'm in.
He made me feel that its okay to be spoilt sometimes.
He made me want to throw my cold strong front and just cry my eyes out. Just because I can and that its okay to do that.
He made me think better. Made me feel better.
He has this totally different interest than mine.
But then, it feels like that dont matter. Cause we clicked.
But then again, I dont really know how he feels bout whatever this is.
We're both broken.
We've both been through similar shits when it comes to the L word.
We're both unsure of ourselves.
No, we may not like the same thing and whtever, but there's still that tiny similarities.
No, dont ask me.i dont know what it is. You just feel it.
A good friend told me to not put my happiness on someone.
Im not.i hope im not.
Cause I dont know what this is.
And I'm not sure if I'm ready to find out.
All I know is that I really appreciate his presence in my life now.
All I know is that I dont want to lose whatever this is.