Ey Wai.

I care about you
I dont know when all this started
I'm not sure how
But I do know that you mean so much to me now

I didn't lie about me going
Its true I wasnt sure of going
So I said I wasnt.
Plus I'm still waiting for the money
I cant confirm that I'm going unless I'm sure dad approved

Remember that tweet I tweeted this morning?
I said "I love you dad"
He finally said yes
And only then I was able to confirm with sensei
It seems like he has already put my name on the list
I didnt know bout that

I'm sorry you have to find out like that
I have this whole surprise thing planned in my head
I wanted to surprise you
But I guess it backfired
It made you annoyed and more disgusted of me

I wish I could call you and explain and everything
But then I remembered
I guess to you,
We were never even really that close
I'm not sure whether you even bothered bout me at all

I wish you'd stop giving me the silent treatment
I wish I could tell you I missed you and your annoyingly cute but mean and rude remarks
I wish I could tell you that those small little things mattered the most
I wish I could just let you see
I wish you would notice that I feel so awful
I wish we didnt have to go through this.
I wish I could just say that i missed you.